November 23, 2013

The Hardest Week of My Life


So, this week was awful. 
And for once I don't mean that in a teenager-y depressed way á la no one understands me, I'm such a desperate creature (you know what I'm talking about, don't you?) - but just in a sighing, very adult-ish stressed out way.
I mean, when I was still in highschool there were busy weeks, too. Those days where you didn't see home until the sun was already down again and you ran from A to B to get your stuff done and meanwhile tried to squeeze some homework in. 
It's not like school is easier that way. I guess I was just more used to it. In school, I knew what to do for a good mark and even if it cost me three nights of sleep and tears and hurting fingers I would get that A if I wanted it.
At Uni, things are a lot more complicated. You might be working your something off, but you still can't be sure it's enough. Hell, you could be doing something completely irrelevant and noone tells you!
This is what happened to me this week. It is just frustrating working so hard and then realizing you did it wrong/ have to improve majorly in that area etc. etc. 
In addition to that comes all the other work you  still have to do that you might also be doing wrong. 
And then you go  for your every day easy run and realize it is. not. easy.
It was quite awful for me this week. Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday I literally paused every three seconds, gasping for air and asking myself what was wrong with me. 

I mean, failing at one thing, fine. You move on and try again tomorrow. But failing at one thing, being insecure about something else and then realizing that you can't even run half a mile anymore is sort of depressing.

So, here's what I did. 

1) Skipped dinner every night and shoved my mouth full with candy and pastries.

2) Limited running to minimum length and minimum speed.

3) Left that watch at home. (Me without my Garmin? Has never happened before!)

4) Actually set down to read a book that was not a law book. 

5) Went shopping.

Okay, that last point is not entirely true. I have not gone shopping yet. I am going shopping after I'm done with this post.

The point I'm trying to make here is: If you feel stressed out (especially with the holidays coming up!!!) and ready to stay in bed all day - do that!
And if the majority of you (like me) can't afford staying in bed all day, try deleting some things from your schedule. And if you think that's impossible, I'm here to tell you it is  not. It. Is. Not. 
You don't have to do every single thing in the world. Not everything and not everyday. Give yourself a break and just do what you want to do (plus the things you HAVE to do like feed your children). 

I think it's frustrating when people advice you to "just take a break" in times like these, because usually you just can't. I get that. There might just not be free weekends. But I promise you there are free minutes. Sometimes even free hours. And we need them. So I think we should take them.

tough people.

Okay, enough for today. I hope this post inspired you :D 
And that you have a fantastic (or at least very efficient) weekend!!!


  1. Very true! Sometimes, we just need a little break, and it's really better to just take that break right then. It can happen that we'll just get sick if we don't.

    I hope next week will be better, that your confidence will be strong again and that your motivation will be top notch!

    Lexxie @ (un)Conventional Bookviews

    1. Thank you! Actually, Monday's about to be over here and it was a pretty amazing day :) And the break felt amazing and was just what I needed!

  2. *big hug*
    That was a. Tough lesson to learn. I remember exactly when I learned that lesson in University. It sucked. But, you pick yourself up and sit yourself off and take it a step at a time...and soon (probably after winter break) you'll find your groove and be able to ascertain when you can grab that A and when you'll have to do your best but be genuinely proud of that C or B.

    PS: why haven't we guest posted on each other's blogs.! Tweeting you now about this...needs to happen! At some point!

    1. Amazing idea!!!!! I never think of these things on my own, but we definitely have to do it! And soon! And thank you for your comment! I figured it'd take a while to get used to Uni and I'm mostly okay with that :) It's just SO annoying...I tend to be rather ambitious - and for the wrong reasons. But I'm already so much better now!

  3. I'm sorry you had such a tough week. It's hard when so many things are happening at once and you don't feel like you are doing anything right. I'm glad you sound like you aren't allowing it all to get to you. I hope you found something great during your retail therapy session! Just remember it won't be like this forever.

    1. Thank youuuu! Such a sweet comment! I'm honestly not quite sure what I'd do without the blog sometimes ;) And NO, not letting anything get to me! When in doubt, I'll just empty my wallet at Forever21... :D

  4. I definitely understand about hard weeks an university! I've had many. I hope you make it through and I love the inspiration! Great post :)

    Janina @ Synchronized Reading

    1. I'm so glad you liked it! I tend to complain too much so looking at Pinterest and remembering nothing is ever as bad as it seems helps a LOT to not be a whiny princess all the time! After all, throwing a tantrum has never helped anyone, right?


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